Distraction

So given that I leave this country in three days, I am finding ways to distract myself and delay the inevitable what-was-I-thinking-I-am-going-to-die panic which will hit me at some point. One of the ways I have been doing this is by thinking about writing.

The idea of writing excites me. The idea of creating a world full of wonderful characters who are relatable and imperfect inspires me. The idea of contributing something worthwhile that other people actually read and like is my top-secret dream, but I have no idea how to do it, so I've been reading about it.

As I mentioned before, I'm a big fan of Dan Harmon. I was reading his blog and came across this post about character creation. I have been thinking of doing this exercise on someone I know, but I'm worried that I won't be able to stay compassionate. I think I would have to tear their soul out of their chest to really do this right, and it seems like an unfair exercise for that reason. That being said, whatever judgement I unearth through the exercise would be something that is right there, anyway, but it seems like writing something down in text makes it more real and final than thinking it in my head.

Or maybe I've got it all wrong and it won't be until I really embrace and wade around in someone else's flaws that I'll be able to finally accept them.

I think these noble thoughts like that maybe I will work on this while I'm on the plane, but in reality I'll likely watch some Community commentary until it's late enough to take an Ativan and go to sleep.